ForSure

that's it.
fuckin NEVER again,
i tried and did it work? NAW.
i've obviously lost everything i had >=(
so ken, it's over, i said i'd try and i did.
so why all this hurting? that's why i've given up.
sorry if anyone does actually like me, but yeez are too late, tonight was the chance to prove it!
so fuck it,
yeez will probably not see me for a long time!

WhiteLightsHaveTurnedToRed

well... it's final, last attempt

if that doesn't work then i'm finished.

possibly for life :/ but ah well ae, it's for the best

can't be that bad... surely.

i want to just give up now, cause it would be so much easier on myself basically. stop me trying for no reason.

if nothin turns up, then nomis eats his shoes and i give up.

sounds fair.

who am i kidding? nothins going to turn up. my mind is settled at that... well not setlled at all, but it's made.

it's quite clear now, it's because i'm purposely dragging myself away from it.

stops me hurtin people doesn't it?

YouWantItAll,ButYouCan'tHaveIt!

wtf?
totally uncalled for, fair enough i did kinda ask for it but you could've just said, i can't make you happy or something like that. uncalled for.
i don't want your apologies!!!

DO YOU REMEMBER??????????

FUCKIN HELL
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON
FUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M THROUGH WITH THIS!!!!!! I FUCKIN HATE IT ALL THE NOW!!
I DON'T EVEN FUCKIN KNOW WHY?
BUT I WOULD LOVE SOMEBODY TO TELL ME!
I CAN'T BE FUCKED WITH ANYTHING/ANYONE!
IT'S ME AND YOU AGAINST THE FUCKING WORLD!

thank you for always being my best mate.... i love you man! <3 xxx

ThisIsn'tOverYet,AndWe'veOnlyJustBegun!

tonight has been rather ghiid :)
went tae the grans, collected the warlock and put it in le maw's car ;D, got the bus up town afterwards.
met zander and manda at the bus station conveniently XD, sat at the square with zander, manda, meesh, johnny, danni, nomis, danielle, meep, dean (for a wee while) and dionne.
me, meep and danni split a bottle of glen's XD. went down the park for a wee while, then headed up to the hill half a bottle later. started talking to danni about how shit some things are :/. but ayee xD
stayed there for a couple of hours then danni and i walked to the bus station. she got her bus so i walked round to get mines, zander and manda appeared aswell :L adn were like 'Jamie YER BUS IS RIGHT THERE!!!' how they knew it was my bus, i haven't a clue, but thank fuck they did :L

When I got in i sat and watched 'Hide and Seek' cause it's totally amazin.
Then i came on msn and what not :L.
i was then in desperate need of a fag cause i lost all of mines D: and my dad took his tobacco away with him D:D:. so i started asking about and no one had any D:, but then i noticed Ami was online and was like 'ken if i sprinted to yours, could i tap a fag?' so thats what happened :L and now i'm very sore and very sweaty and feel sick, but i did get a fag ;D
Thank You Ami = ).

It'sJustAHolidayForYou!

You're sooo fuckin lucky btw, cause i probably would have killed you. i mean fair enough, they took everything. but why do that? you weren't fucking there at the time you arrogant piece of shit!
that would have got everyone in shit except you!!

YoungCardinals

I've had a rather giid weekend :)

Friday: Had a giid day at work... mainly cause all i had up until i finished was 5 cans of GoFast Energy Drink (High Caffeine Content without the 'Jittery Crash' afterwards (as it says on the can)) and a wispa :L.

went up town... met Chris who is rather awesome, from Livingston D: lol at him ;D.

he went to central news for my drink :) which was rather nice considerin he all over town for everyone else's drink D:

so once i had my drink, i went up the spot and got absolutely rat arsed :L can't remember much of the last hour or two haha.

went home and watched something... :L live at the apollo (i think). but i didn't find it very funny. i felt rather upset for some reason :S

went out for a fag then bed :L

got up on saturday morning at like... half 7 i think it was lol. and my calf's were really sore haha.

I sat and watched tv and ate my coco pops ;D That's right COCO POPS FTW :L :) i enjoy my coco pops.

2 hours and 3 bowls of coco pops later, i decided i would go get ready for town cause i wanted to go up early to buy clothes, but instead i met Twitch on the bus so i ended up hanging about with him and some lassy who i think was called Siobhan, but i'm not sure :L... aw well

but then i went to the square and met someone... i think it may have been Zander and Grant... not sure though.

so was talking to them and then people started to appear :)

me and Zander ended up gettin into a small play fight... so i judo flipped him ;D sort of haha.

then yet again, got Chris to go in for drink :) then it started to rain D: so we went under the links.

we thought the spot would be a fail D:, but we got chris to go down to lidl for dean's drink, then walked up the spot :)

turned out pretty damn giid :)

dean, chris, meep and I (probably someone else, but can't remember who) went to the chippy :)

got chips xD then Dean and I got the bus back to mines ;D cause he was stayin.

we pestered my dad to go to the shop for more drink and fags, but he was drinkin :( so we never got any more :( :L

then we watched most of "Castaway". was rather funny :)

then played guitar hero with dean, my dad and alisha for a few hours :L was giid :)

and we played the burpin/safe/doorknob game with my dad (whatever it's actually called)

*Burp* "safe" *Burp* "safe" *Burp*....... "DOORKNOB" "aahhhh, Why are yeez hittin me??" "say five types of fish and we'll stop hittin yi" "Thighs a type of fish?" "NO, FIVE...TYPES...OF...FISH HAHA" "awcht, nut... fuck off" :L lol

went to bed at about 2 or somethin D: rather early for a saturday night..../sunday mornin... :S. but aw well

woke up about half 11, got ready, had coffee, went out for a fag, walked down the the layby at the old high school so dean could get picked up, i walked down to sainsbury's (somerfields better) to get a sandwhich and shit :)

walked down to my grans... wiisni in. so i went and got the bus up town,

met grant and lahn and zander, then others came up :)

Zander,Manda and I went shopping so i could get new clothes :) and Zander was a great help :) he helped me get a full new outfit ;D i picked the shoes though xD.

so that was giid and also cost me £77 altogether :)

but well... thats about ennough from me :)

so bye until next time ;D